We tend to always have a fixed perception or views on someone, because of that, we assumed their behaviors are within our expectation. But the thing about human is, we often do things that are way out of one’s imagination. However it is with such actions, we brings out further depth and horizons of ourselves to the others.
There’s always this tiny part of me clinging on to you; like you were some vessels in me. Everywhere I go, subconsciously I would think of you; perhaps that’s because we have almost been to everywhere. With all the memories gathered, it’s impossible to cut you off like how you did to me. But I was glad you did. We were puzzles that didn’t fit; draining one another’s energy if we continued. Nevertheless I thankful for you; you taught me the idea of love, to love and to be loved. Thank you J. I hope one day you wld find someone worthy of you. :)
” I could get used to being alone”
Hello,
As awkward as this may looks like, I couldn’t think of any other platforms to address our issue; this is what I came up with eventually.
I would like to start off by apologizing for my very attempt to spite the hell out of you by going off to USS with my poly friends. Well, I would like to state that friendship is a two way street. It takes two to tango. It may have been “mean” of me to break my promise while you were away but in my defense you guys were just nasty to leave me out on your overseas trip. If you would take a moment to step into my shoe and view things from my perspective, you might not find it ridiculous at all, but hurtful. I will never forsake you and went off to a foreign country. Rather than being mad at you, I was disappointed. But then again, we have our own perceptions and expectation of a friendship. Younglings like us, have the absolute freedom to discover the world therefore friendship shouldn’t act as a hindrance. Fact is that, I’m probably too used to having you guys around hence the concept of “being forsaken” is definitely new. I couldn’t handle myself and I snapped; the outburst of the hidden emotions. It seems like I’m always the one that hold grudges. Instead of allowing a person or act be a part of my thoughts, perhaps I should probably accept it and move on. Hah sorry dude. .If you have probably realized by now, we sort of have a kind of destructive friendship as in some way, we might be too alike. (Other than the fact that I might be potentially smarter and prettier than you) We won’t admit we’re wrong during an argument thus it’s always spirals out of control, destroying everything. At the end it all comes down to the game of “No, you don’t know me well” and yes we don’t. That’s the purpose of a friendship, to explore one’s nature and character through hurdles. Human, our complexity is beyond one’s understanding. So with that being said, it is quite impossible for us to totally understand one another. As the earth evolves, we constantly change. Ask yourself, do you truly understand yourself after your 18th years of living? Furthermore, we are unaware that things we do might potentially hurt one another. Oh well, to err is human. Human beings, we are flawed in our very own ways that are invisible to one. You’re just plain annoying sometimes. Next, (this has nothing to do with our quarrel but my instinct tells me that it should be directed to you) Now, take a walk down memory lane, we’ve always failed to do what we planned. It’s like everything we have planned is for pleasure of the ears or temporary excitement. It’s irritating in some sense that might be oblivious to you or perhaps it just came down to my own discrimination towards you and our plans. Right now, things has been inevitably distant between us. Well, we have messed this entire thing up that’s beyond savage. So, I guess the only thing left to do is to embrace our mistakes. C’est la vie. With that being said, there might actually be one day where you can live better without me being by your side.
X
